I have been away from the keyboard but I have been doing a lot of thinking nonetheless. Thinking about the future. Thinking about how to best spend my free time. Thinking about how to make friends, friendships and connecting with family. Lots of thinking.
I don’t have anything profound or meaningful to report. My daughter just took her boards and is breathing a sigh of relief. The baby is due in about 8 weeks or so. They have moved closer to the in-laws for her fellowship. The hubby’s big job is lining up with offer letters. They are doing great.
My son is motoring along also. Thanks to my bestie, he has a 30-year military veteran guiding him through the officer recruitment process. There have been bumps in the road, but these have been resolved. Now it appears things are lining up for his interview with the recruiting board. Cross your fingers. In the meantime, he is temping and making good money. His head is in a better place these days, so I am relieved. He just needs to find a new apartment in 30 days.
For me, I have been fine. I have been very introspective lately. Spending time with so much family has really caused me to reflect on missed opportunities. My Ex was never one to want to interact with my family. My mom also kept hers at arm’s length. Now that I have the freedom to decide, I want to spend more time with them. One of my cousins wants to set up a quarterly Zoom with all the cousins. I think that’s a good start.
I have given myself the goal of 2 social events per month for the remainder of the year. These can be MeetUps, book clubs, live music, etc. They need to be with strangers so I can start making friends. My July events are a book club and a free live music event. I need to think about August. Perhaps church is an option. I am not a religious person, but the right church could offer the right social context perhaps.
I am trying to keep moving my body. I will never be a super athlete, but if I can just keep walking and doing some other things, I will be healthier mentally and physically. I wonder if I will do more in retirement. Who knows? It has been so incredibly rainy this summer, that I haven’t tried to sign up for more golf lessons. I don’t begrudge the rain because a really rainy summer keeps the hurricanes at bay around here. I will take that trade-off every time.
Perhaps my introspective vaguely melancholy mood is due to my current state of waiting. I am waiting for my grandchild’s birth, waiting for my son to get settled in his next chapter, waiting for my savings to grow so I can perhaps buy a home, waiting for the real estate market to settle down so I can do that, waiting for retirement, waiting for the pandemic to subside so we can all return to a more normal existence. Waiting. Patience. Ugh. Two things that really aren’t my thing- LOL. But I am learning to relax and let it unfold. I guess that’s a win.